please dont mind this one because im just writing exactly whats on mah mind right now. and at this current moment its yuh. i hate that mah heart moves faster than i actually tell it to. im going to fast way to fast i tell myself but i dont wanna slow down. one minute im slowing down then you say or do something to make me feel like thats what im suppose to be doing. its not suppose to be like that. thats what happens everytime when i just listen to my heart and not mah mind the signs are all there but its like i just cant see them. too blind to realize the truth,well this time i dont know whats actually going on. ive been in this situation before. [ the music] one. but last time that nigga was just hella crazy so i dont know what to say about that nigga lol. i dont know man i just dont wanna get hurt again when i put mah hurt into things like this it always gets hurt. like never fails and i really dont feel like it again. but i feel like hes so different. so different. what do i do about the way im feeling, its too fast i must slow down and focus stay really focused because i know how itll turn out if i dont. Lord please help me stay strong because i really dont know what to do. its like every since he said yo i was hooked. he calls me his juicy. i love that. no one does that for me, and he does. i wanna feel love like everyone else. i think i deserve to be happy this year. this year has to be different. because i want this ish forever...
